frustration
I locked it away a long time ago, so that I could focus more on getting through what they were telling me was more important. I told myself it was only temporary, that I’d come back for it when I didn’t have to worry about everything else. Years later, I realized that this wasn’t something I should have hastily locked away like I did, to collect dust in some corner of my heart..
Well, I’m back for it.
A little too late maybe, because I’ve lost the key.
Now what?
"An idea is like a virus. Resilient. Highly contagious. The smallest seed of an idea can grow. It can grow to define or destroy you."
Cobb, Inception
"It’s important in life to conclude things properly. Only then can you let go. Otherwise you are left with words you should have said but never did, and your heart is heavy with remorse."
Yann Martel, Life of Pi
i need to break out of this cycle of security.
:)
It’s not that I’m not afraid anymore.
It’s just that my fear doesn’t mean as much to me as this does.
so apparently,
my brother’s girl friends think I’m really scary, and his soccer teammates think I’m.. “hot”…
I think I’m doing this sister thing right.
When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with You above the storm
Father You are king over the flood
I will be still and know You are God
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
C. S. Lewis, Mere Christianity
Today,
in my neatest handwriting,
I wrote down my messiest thoughts.
And set them on fire.
And watched those heavy, heavy words become nothing.
If only.
